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3:11 p.m. - Wednesday, Nov. 12, 2008 I think that I have figured out why I was a little depressed on Monday. I was disappointed in myself for faltering, I didn�t stick out my decision, I gave up on what I thought was right at that time. It confuses me, that I could be so sure that I was done just last Saturday and then I just had to hold him Sunday, what made everything change? Am I just so scared to be alone that I convince myself to love him anyway, no matter how much he has hurt and disrespected me? I hope that isn�t it, because that will fade and I will be right back to hating him and that isn�t fair for either of us and would just completely suck! Talking it out has been helping. I am sure I am not saying everything that I feel and think, but I just feel like some of it is better left alone. There really are some things he doesn�t need to know.
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