kimluvs2read's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Sexual Electricity, Does it really exist? Thought or should I say Hoped, it was getting better. I was wrong. I mean I don’t think about blue eyes on the weekends, as much, but as soon as I start thinking about work he pops in my mind. And I get so frustrated, I don’t want to think about him, especially since thinking about him makes muscles in my body tighten and wetness appear. So I have been trying to tell myself that even if we were single, he wouldn’t really want me anyway. Especially since he doesn’t always flirt. Today I was thinking, I am sure he won’t come in my office and “I don’t care anyway!” (yeah right). Then of course he does and he shakes my hand, and I (not thinking about it) kinda make it linger, as he pulls his hand away I don’t completely let go and so his fingers slide along mine as he pulls his hand away, OH MY! Well he says “oh wait we got to do this again I didn’t let it linger like you did” and he shakes my hand again, and he does what I did, so now our fingers slide and it is slower and his hands are VERY NICE and I was hot and bothered and tingly! DAMN HE IS HOT! And he makes me hot. Just one hour alone, oh what I wouldn’t give! Then there is my husband, oh why does it have to be this way. Almost everything is better, the almost is the sex. I just don’t care, I can do what we do together alone. I want to want to touch and kiss and lick and make out and smell his skin. I just don’t. He isn’t unattractive at all, but I just don’t get hot for him at all. I hate this fact so much, because we are good friends, we are making everything else work, we talk and we don’t scream so much, but will the sex thing get to be too much? I want to feel satisfied, completely. I want the entire experience to be mind blowing, I want electricity to flow from my body to his, is this just too much to ask? 1:51 p.m. - Wednesday, Nov. 26, 2008 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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