kimluvs2read's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reset..............................Please! I need to start over, I need a reset button, something, anything. I can’t find the answers, and I have looked pretty much everywhere. I CAN’T, DON’T, WON’T, forgive V, I am not sure which it is, but there you are, I just don’t have it in me to give him a true chance. When he touches me I want to scream! I feel obligation to touch him, not a want or need, I mean I really need to be touched, just not by him, I don’t want him anymore, at all. But I told him I would try. So now what? What do you do when you said you would try but you don’t have the urge to care, much less put the effort forth that that requires! and a little more..... I think I would like to start a book club. I need to do something to bring new people into my life. And since I love to read this could kill 2 birds one stone and all. Both my friends are moving sometime around June. I know it is going to suck. I don’t really see much of them, Li I really only see at work, but I can be completely honest with both of them and they know pretty much everything about me. I don’t really have anyone else like that. I mean I am sure I could be that way with my sister, but I don’t get to talk to her much either. But I also don’t like to burden any one person with all my shit too often. I guess I should just get a regular therapist, but I don’t really want to pay someone to listen to my shit either. 12:48 p.m. - 2008-11-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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