kimluvs2read's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - I am feeling pointlessly blah today. I don’t know what the problem is. I am feeling empty again. It doesn’t make any sense, but life seldom does, to me anyway. I want to start working a couple nights a week at one of the local restaurants as a waitress; it has to have a bar though so I can eventually get back to bartending. I love bartending! I want to meet new people and I figure that is a pretty good way to go about it. I could be out, meet new people and get paid for it. I just feel like I have no friends. Two of my friends moved, and my best friend just got divorced and I am still married so it just isn’t that same. It sucks too, I miss her so much. Haven’t seen Blue Eyes at all today. Shit for all I know he didn’t even come to work. There are three men in the building that openly flirt with me, two I would NEVER touch, but it is okay that they flirt, I just smile or laugh, but I don’t discourage it, it makes me feel nice, like maybe I could be considered sexy and beautiful. Blue Eyes is the other, he just isn’t consistent, one day he flirts hard, and then others he acts like we have never spoken as if we could be even friends. He drives me nuts. I crave something, I don’t think it is attention, I just want to know that maybe every once in awhile I cross your mind. I want to believe you miss me when I am not there. And it would be nice to hear from you when or if I do. 2:30 p.m. - 2008-05-06 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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